Reflection
When first receiving the critical research analysis assignment, I was lost and confused and had no idea what to do. As I read the topics, none of them stood out to me in a way in which I can understand it. I asked my colleagues on what topic they were doing, they gave me the same puzzled face that I had when I first read the topics. After researching each prompt, I finalized my choice with the third prompt and was going to discuss the critique of society through the examples of “The Bluest Eye” and Sigmund Freud’s lectures.
Throughout completing the essay, I struggled in several ways. I needed to present an argument with research and support from Freud’s lectures. I used the story of “The Bluest Eye” because it focused on aspects of society compared to the other stories that our professor made us read. Since the story had ideas of racism and woman in it, my interest was of the story increased because of the infamous topics presented. Despite the story’s length, I viewed many ideas in the story that focused on society being critiqued through the main characters Pecola and Claudia. I wanted to present an argument to my professors reading, of how racism and beauty standards affected colored females in society. This type of essay made me dig deeper into my ideas and analyze them to the fullest, simply because I have never done an essay that was similar to this. As I read “The Bluest Eye”, I made sure to point out all the areas where the main characters were affected by the beauty standards of their society and how they think differently of themselves. Knowing that my audience was my professors, I analyzed the text and its ideas being displayed rather than just simply summarizing it. This essay made me as a writer go into my opinions and use that as a way to be descriptive of the ideas I wanted to talk about. I was a little bias, simply because of when this story was made and how the problems between colored and whites did have an effect on my story. I also had to use outside sources in this paper. My college of CCNY came to the rescue with jstor.org. This website had advanced searches of databases that helped me find exactly what I needed to use to support my argument. The whole process of this essay was not easy at all. I had tutors who never showed up, my professors were the ones who helped me more than anything. In the end, when I hit the submit button to hand in the essay, it felt good because I took my time to do the essay and I felt like it was worth it. Through hard work, surely comes ease, and I felt proud of myself.
